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Hell is not for mortals

Cover me in poison

Drown me with your fears

Suffocate me with your dominance

Stop me with your tears

Then you wonder why I left after all of these years

Because you sought to keep me my dear

You thought if you drowned me in toxins

I wouldn’t have the strength

To up and go and leave you

But we don’t share the same wavelength

I am not broken by abuse

Abuse it makes me strong

I am not like you who are weakened by the chains that are your bonds

I instead get stronger

Each and every day

I keep faith right beside me

I grow stronger because I pray

Though you never heard a word I’ve said

I keep it close to heart

And from your bonds I am released

And now I have to depart

You can’t keep me with your darkness

You can’t control me in every way

Because I have silent faith

Because I silently prayed

Now I will go away

And wish you well in life

But I can’t stay here with you

Because you bring me strife

God has released me from the bonds you bound me with

He is the reason that I left

Because he is not happy at the life you stole

Mine, it is theft

Thou shalt not steal be the law

In the commandments ten

Someday he will call you to account

I don’t know how, why or when

But I leave you now

To think on this

And think on it you must

Because you have allowed your ego to be overcome with lust

Goodbye my dear I am going

Goodbye my dear, please learn

For I do love you dearly

And know you do not deserve to burn

Because everyone makes mistakes

It is true and it is forgiven

But never let power rule your heart

It is evilly driven

Goodbye my love, I wish you well

There is no place for you in Hell

Because Hell is not for mortals

Did you know?

It’s for the adversary to go

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Fear is rooting you

Drowned in fears your feet become stubborn

Turning into wood you are rooted to the ground of which you stand

Stagnant and no movement, no change, just going slowly deranged

But what you want is more grand

Fear takes a hold of the boldest of hearts

Strength is a dream and liberty is an art

No more shall you cry those forbidden tears

You have wanted this for many years

And now the time has come to be

Well and truly happily free

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This is who and what I am

Weather beaten I stand tall

Whiplashed and in pain I withstand the rain

I don’t care what you think of me

My dream has always been to be free

I don’t care what people say

I just sit around waiting for those better days

You can’t know what is in my heart

When you try to tear me apart

Nothing can be worse that this

I just search for love and bliss

You can see my battle scars

But you treat me like I’m from Mars

But you know one thing is clear to me

You can never ever be me

No you don’t have the strength to fight the storm

And batten down the hatches against the vicious swarm

Of hate and lies and words of contempt

You could fight it, but you won’t even attempt

That is why I know I have strength

That’s why your words don’t touch me

Because my heart is free from me

I’ve left it outside in the cold rain

It’s there to protect me from the pain

No more do I give a damn

This is who and what I am

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Baby steps to fitness

The high protein diet seems to be helping me a lot in my health, though I have had a couple of bad days this week I have noticed my asthmas is improving, whether that is coincidental or not I don’t know.

I am trying to get three minute exercises in about three times a day, because I am doing this from being housebound and bedbound sick for the past eight or nine years, so baby steps!

I started around two months ago squatting for fifteen seconds as that was the most I could do before I got shaky and felt pain, but I have now progressed to being able to squat for up to three and sometimes four minutes now. 

This progressed to me getting up from a chair and sitting down again twenty times in a row twice a day as well, to now being able to do that around eighty times before I need to rest.

Five days ago I added a new exercise to the three times a day thing, that is the weight shake, I can’t do more than twenty five seconds per arm at the moment and I am getting shakiness in my arms again, because they are not used to being used – but I am trying my best to strengthen myself up a bit.

Though Paul is concerned that I have complained of shock pains in my right arm, meaning that my carpal tunnel syndrome could show up again soon, if I don’t slow down a bit.

I haven’t started going out for walks yet, but that’s next on the agenda, perhaps in a week or two.

I have been trying to force my body to use to the idea that I want to be athletic again, even though in reality I am still quite sick, I am trying to force my body to get better. 

I am also working hard in cosmic ordering on all areas of my life, so with my new found positive approach to life, I should get there!  I won’t say hope, because that sends signals to the universe that I want to feel like being hopeful about things and so things won’t change and they must change!

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Be silent, be silent

 

Be silent, be silent you drive me mad

Says my enemies to me in their mind that’s bad

Be quiet, be quiet they shout and plea

In their minds every day, directed at me

Yet I still talk, I still move on

I still continue because I grow strong

I won’t quit and I won’t stop

Not until their minds go POP!

Until they realise it isn’t me

It is their selves the silly things

They focused on me so much they ache

And so a spell they do create

Against me, their obsession and they can’t see

That the one who tortures them isn’t me

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Raoul

Coast to coast I sail the universe looking for my enemies that I curse

To take away their fearsome power, their energies I’m soon to devour

I shall win this war and go back home, no longer shall I have to roam with mortal man and live in secrecy

I will defeat them, wait and see

A wall can be broken down like Jericho; I haven’t much farther to go you know?

I can see the defiance in my enemies’ eyes, I will be stronger, but it’s all lies

You can’t defeat me anymore, I’ve opened wide the universal door

My help has come in brimful loads

Your reign of terror will implode

We’ll seek you out and you will be stricken down in catastrophe

I will not lose this immortal war

I love my realms, they I adore

I set free all my creations

You are my next decimation

Raoul

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