There is rubble in my mind
Broken fragments of confidence that once was
Smashed bricks laying around my mind like a relic of past self-esteem
Amongst the rubble is a lost person
Where she is, nobody knows and they probably won’t find her again
Even if these relics mend, she would be different, I would be different
I’d be a stranger to past friends
Hopefully she won’t be found again, the me that’s lost
As I’ve learned a lot since I was broken down
I’ve learned not to hide my inner frown
I no longer say OK, Yes if you like, I instead have learned not to bite
I now say no, I correct others, without fear of being shunned
Without being ridiculed and abashed for being scum
I now speak my mind, I won’t change that
It did me no good years ago and that’s a fact
To keep quiet
That’s not good, it keeps you very misunderstood, trodden on, under the thumb
People think that you’re dumb when you say yes all the time or agree a lot
It’s best to say what you truly want
Living in fear of other people’s reaction will attract more people like those you hate, it’s a cosmic attraction
So you may as well be, as you like
Whether you speak your mind or not, there’s always a fight
Whose side are you on? Your enemies or your own?
You’d better choose yourself, or you’ll always be alone
Yes my mind is broken, but it’s on it’s way to repair
Though I’ve shed so many tears and lived life in despair
Though I’m mocked most thoroughly by those who think they know
The truth as they see it, but they don’t truly know
I mock those idiots who are blind to see, the life I had to live
For I know the truth quite well and I did try to give
But people only want to see what they want to see
Whether another has told them otherwise, it makes them feel safe and brassy
But if they want to close the door to the truth that I have known, then forgive me as I close the door to those who had thrown the stones
I cannot live a lie anymore, I will speak the truth
But if you cannot bear it, then I’ll do so via sleuth
Yes my mind is broken, but the old me I’ve outgrown
A better stronger queen will emerge, for I have found my throne
So walk on by fake family, those who tried their best, to take me from my kindred and make my mind a mess
For I am not needful now, nor will I ever be
For I have found the people, who will set me free!