I realised for years I said I was hypoactive but really it’s hyperactive – didn’t know they were two very different things! I certainly don’t have any problem with my sex drive, not that you’d be interested anyway – but, there you go!
Why am I babbling on about this? Because I wanted it to be clear that I have a hyperactive mind and when my body allows it a hyperactive body too! Because of this I find it hard to concentrate on things for longer than fifteen to twenty five minutes a time – a long stretch for me – in fact, even ten minutes occasionally is stretching the boundaries of what I can do!
I have to change tasks or I suppose they call it fidget, if I am made to do something for longer than fifteen minutes.
When I am writing – anything, no matter how my flow is or not, I have to stand up randomly, dance whilst writing and even sing! I need a lot of stimulus all the time when I am writing, but preferably nothing that means I need to communicate with others verbally. For example, I need music or I need background television turned on something akin to what I am trying to write.
I will pause as I write and make notes, I will observe the wildlife through a nearby window and I will pet my pets. After around fifteen minutes of writing, I will check social media and stay there for around ten minutes before hopping back into writing, sometimes quite literally!
I am going to buy a standard desk and put it next to my sitting desk and have the laptop and my desktop on at the same time, so that eventually I can update my cloud with my stories on them and get up from the desk and use the laptop and type whilst standing up – this would benefit my health immensely, whilst catering to my ADHD.
In between writing and social media there are two or three online games I play whilst taking a break from those – such as ovipets.com, candy crush and paper Io.
Sometimes when I get physically jittery, I will randomly get up and walk around the garden once and come back to writing.
I basically just can’t sit on my buns all day and write; fifteen minutes can sometimes be torture!
On days when my main isn’t so bad, I become really hyperactive as a writer and can write in excess of 4k words in that day and sometimes I have been known to reach 12k in a day!
But these days only tend to happen when my physical pain is significantly low for the day!
I get a lot of people who disbelieve that I can do this, that I can push out more than two thousand words in a day, especially when as far as they are concerned they think I haven’t left twitter for hours! When in actuality, I have it opened on a tab on my computer and I am only really going back and forth from twitter approximately every fifteen minutes sometimes more, because I get side-tracked with games and other things too!
I just needed this to get out there… I need people to know just how I do things, because it is frustrating that nobody seems to believe me at times.
What makes it worse is my memory.
I endeavour every day to post a word count list, but I often forget to do this and I even forget to add the hand written notes and the laptop additions I do at night after I have shut social media down.
I am even forgetting to update my goodreads.com account regularly these days, because I am so absorbed in reading and writing and then after two weeks I’ve added that I have read three books seemingly over night, when in fact it was over the two week period!
I am all over the place, I seem disorganised and frantic, but actually I feel quite serene, happy and I am a pedant in organising things – it’s just other people who don’t respect my stuff and move things, that cause chaos in my life! I am incredibly OCD about things and it drives me nuts living in a house where someone is not meticulous like me and will throw a spanner in my neat and tidy works!
I had spent three weeks once re-arranging all of my books alphabetically and within certain genres around the house, for people to want to browse through my books and dump them wherever they like; same for my DVDs.
I have a pile of papers next to my desk and when I am in bed asleep, as my sleeping schedule is anywhere between 3am and 1pm, usually 5am to 11am if I am honest – I find that someone has opened a window in the living room near my desk and the papers have been blown everywhere and they’ve tried to save my work by not looking at the page numbers and randomly compiling them together again, with a shoe print on one or two and then they wonder why I get mad!
Sometimes a note will blow away without me realising it and ends up under the sofa for months and things like this or little files I have in another room get knocked over by people and they fall out their little plastic pockets and behind a dusty old cabinet and nobody has told me they couldn’t be bothered to rescue it and I find it weeks later covered in spider poo.
It’s hard to be a writer here with that going on, it’s even harder when you have ADHD, OCD and another problem I don’t have a name for, when you’ve found your stuff being disrespected like that you get so upset and disheartened you can’t bring yourself to work that day because you have to try and clean it all up and retype it or cry yourself back to sleep because you fell into a depressive nap. Whatever that mental problem is, I have that too!
So there you have it, that’s how I work.
I can’t help it and I have tried to change, but its impossible.
Thanks for reading!