Having lived a life of semi-isolation pre-covid, because of life circumstances, I have not developed in a usual manner for other people in society.
My life has effectively been similar to that of a yogi.
Why do I say that?
Because I have spent a lot of my life in social isolation because of one reason or another and I have always had reflective thoughts on everything that happens to me. My memory is very good when things happen to me, because they seldom happen to me, if you get my drift?
Religion, philosophy and self-improvement has always been a way of life for me, indeed, it is a lifestyle of sorts. I am always soul searching, I meditate often though not in the usual manner and I spend a lot of time inside of myself.
This has made me become described by many people as a sensitive and highly empathetic being.
I come from a very spiritual and somewhat occultist background with my grandmother’s gypsy and witch heritage, so I have learned to be open regarding everything and I have inherited my gypsy ancestral ability for clairvoyance.
Not only this but working with angels has always been a major part of my families indoctrination and so I have always worked with my spirit guides or guardian angels as it were on a very close one to one level to such a degree, I do not need to meditate to hear them, like most practitioners do.
Because of all of this, I have become a person to which friends rely on for messages. Some friends of mine in the past and even my exes have become a little afraid of my abilities because it is my lifestyle. I never push my beliefs on anyone, but people find it really hard when I am unsurprised by events that have happened in their lives.
Some are so afraid that they feel invaded and have left my life; others kind of try to abuse my ability and constantly try to get more answers to their questions to their lives.
Why am I sharing all of this?
Because I am finding myself socialising more online these days with new people and there are certain people I can feel want to say something “BIG” to me, but I sense they are afraid of rejection. I think it is only one person; though I can sense seven who have similar intentions to this “main” energy I can feel.
I can tell there are seven new people who want to be a part of my life in a major way, in my opinion there is only the one that connects well to me and what’s so strange about it is, they haven’t made themselves known to me yet. But my spirits have told me, they know everything that they can about me and it’s not just through my blog either!
This particular person who connects to me really well is definitely American, but there are four Americans amongst the seven.
This particular person is begging for a miracle because there are circumstances in his life, which indicate that they cannot do what a regular guy can do, he has a lot of responsibilities and he is afraid of getting me caught up in it all and becoming stressed. He is deeply concerned for my mental health and stability.
He is afraid I will reject him, because he feels I am afraid of the challenges he brings with him.
He is afraid that I will feel emotionally neglected because he is a very busy, constantly on the go kind of guy and along with this, he is afraid he might physically exhaust me as well.
I sense a lot of people in his life know about me and is trying to support him through this awkward emotional time for him.
I feel he is afraid that I will not be impressed by him or that I may feel he is a narcissist in some way if he does what he instinctively feels he should, regarding me.
He is afraid that his lifestyle or certain associations within his lifestyle may emotionally harm me in some way.
He is also unsure how I cope with change and he really doesn’t want to stress me out with a huge upheaval, I definitely see him as very caring and nurturing.
He is also afraid that he might be overreacting about me, that maybe when things calm down a little in his life he may not think the way he does about me. He worries that I have become discovered by him at a vulnerable time in his life – and it is a vulnerable time for him.
But what I can sense about this person is that we are so much in tune with each other. We have the same needs almost and we are perfectly balanced in that, what he wants from me, I have the ability to be naturally that for him and vice versa – we really do not need to change much of ourselves to be part of each other’s lives.
I do feel that they have hugely underestimated my stamina and endurance, not physically, but emotionally. Yes, I do feel physically their lifestyle will be very tiring for me for a while, but he has the ability to improve my stamina over time. But emotionally, we’ll be OK, more than OK in fact.
He is very sensitive and he needs someone who can respect his boundaries and his choices and he is a very private and security oriented person. Maybe he has been hurt a lot in the past or perhaps he is afraid of being taken advantage of or something along those lines…
I am really good at keeping things to myself, I dislike gossip and I am rather security conscious myself – though I do put myself out there a lot online, but depending on my circumstances I can tighten things up for the right person very quickly.
I can train dogs; dogs make me feel more secure… sorry for going off on a tangent there.
I feel our only issue, if we were to have a relationship with one another is that he will definitely find me a little too childish at times and selfish, but he will endeavour to kind of reign that out of me over a time. He likes the playfulness and creativity in me, but the over excitement, the squeals and hyperactivity he will feel he has to step in and calm me down a bit.
He does feel that other people’s opinions mean a lot to him, he is very image conscious but he is not shallow, this much I can feel from him and he is living in frustration that people expect him to be shallow for some reason?
I sense his biggest desire with me is to help me experience a life of fun, freedom and happiness. This is important to him; he wants me to be happy and less tight, it means a lot to him.
He is also afraid that I will reject him because he is a very physical person and somewhat clingy. I don’t mind this actually because I have been attention starved most of my life, I am actually afraid I would slow his life down because of how demanding I can be with snuggles and mooching around them. I know I am a very physical person too and I don’t mean sex, though I have to admit my tantric energy is rarely turned off!
Whoever this guy is, my only concerns are… can you cope with a hyperactive squirrel type woman? Who is always in a snuggle mood, that is super creative and loves to brainstorm her ideas with you all the time. Can you cope with the idea that she hates contraception for herself personally and wants a large family even though she’s forty? If you don’t want kids, can you really keep your hands to yourself until you do?
Do you like dogs? I need a dog in my life… though I’m sympathetic to allergies.
I prefer suburban areas or areas that have a lot of nature around us, like big gardens and trees lining the streets, if nothing else and local parks…
I have a 12yr old son who will not be coming with me in my new life, as he has already chosen to stay with his father because of his 300yr ancestry in this village – will you think less of me for honouring his choices?
Do you like Mediterranean and Asian food as that’s my main diet? Because my ancestry is predominantly Italian with some Sephardic Jewish and Greek roots too.
Are you easily jealous? This could be a problem as I am super friendly with the whole world, likely to hug everyone and be super nice and even a little flirty at times, but I am loyal to a fault!
Can you take the reins if necessary as I need a lot of direction and I get anxious when I am involved too much in a passive relationship… basically, do you have the patience with a person who is constantly asking “is this ok” “is that ok”? Or is that going to annoy you, because I know it has bothered many exes in the past. I am also apologetic as I always feel like I am doing things wrong!
Do you have the patience to help me become the best that I can be as an individual?
How are you with positive people who try to motivate you and help you? Do you allow others to help you? As I am always trying to help people and some people get moody about it, I only need to be told gently – I am OK thank you.
Do you like the outdoors? I love it!
I don’t sunbathe; drink (unless it’s a special occasion & limit myself to 3) or smoke and I don’t do night life with the ladies, like most women do. I am more of a lunch in town or an afternoon tea at home or at friends’ homes type.
How snobby are you? I like thrift stores and markets and antiques.
I have a huge problem with spending loads of money on something I know I can get at a bargain price down the road of the same quality – this was something a couple of my rich exes couldn’t get over and they were snobby about where they got things, regardless of the price. Which made no sense to me, you know look after the pennies and the pounds look after themselves and all that…
Besides I like needlecraft and thrift stores have some nice clothes to touch up and make your own designs with!
I don’t travel light and that is the understatement of the century!
My rabbit Ray means everything to me and if he can’t be part of your life, well… sniff* meanie!
I am a drama queen at times, especially if I feel emotionally neglected and I can sense this is the same for the person I am talking about here. So that will be interesting… two queens in one home…
But I sense I am the submissive one in this energy.
I am really laying myself out there for an energy I don’t know is going to take the plunge with me… are you actually all energy and hot air with no real intention… or are you going to find your balls and talk to me?
Sorry to be blunt, but the suspense is killing me!
I can feel your energy so much it is distracting – when I try not to hone in on this energy I am seeing some weird signs everywhere that makes me refocus again.
Red with gold in blocks or tiles
Purple with teal usually seen with peacocks and shiny metallic blue and horses?
Crystals – jade in particular
March for some weird reason is important, like 2023 March
A black and white cat
A ruby ring
Rose tinted glasses
Adam & Eve references
Alpha and Omega references
It’s all just weird and I know it’s somehow connected to you… whoever you may be!
Why the blazes does my instinct tell me that when I meet you I am going to want to run away and scream and then come back to you like super calm and cool and like… yeah hi, how are you?
Nobody does that to me!
Who are you?
Whoever you are, in dream time we have a certain way of knowing if we’re the right people for each other. Its subtle, but we’ll know.
Thanks for reading!