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Health update & cataloging books

For the next few days I will be cataloguing all of the books in this house (with maybe the exception of my son’s bedroom as I want to live till the end of the week), to put on Goodreads.com as there has been some debate from some of my reader friends about just how many books I actually own because according to what they see on Goodreads I don’t have much.  Well I only used to add those that I bought at the time I have been a member of Goodreads, not all the ones I had before I became a member of the site – so, apparently I have to prove my hoarding addiction to the world – lol.

So that is my challenge for the week and it is back breaking!  You’re probably laughing your heads off at what you think is an exaggeration, but for me it is a reality.  Being bed bound sick for the last 7yrs has severely weakened my core that even standing up for more than 15 minutes at a time is very painful.  I think the diet I have been doing for immune boosting is working, because I am having more days out of bed, in fact I haven’t had a full day in bed since around the 21st of January.

I still need to go back up there regularly, but I am definitely seeing an improvement.  I am also taking extra vitamins with it all too.  I am not losing any weight, in fact gaining it – which is disturbing for me, because my calories are less.  Sugar and fat content is less, food is more nutritionally dense than before and I am slightly more active than I used to be.  It is puzzling why, I have the weight gain.  I am eating approximately 400 calories a day less than I did before these changes and I am doing more around the house, I am now able to care a little for the rabbit and even make snacks and lunches whereas I hadn’t been able to since 2016.  The weight gain is only 5 pounds, but it is freaking me out – somebody suggested my insomnia could be a reason for it, because your  metabolism is determined by your sleep patterns, not sure what to think of that!

My sleep patterns are all over the place.  I usually can’t sleep before 5am and sleep 9 hours a day on average, sometimes I need 13 hours, don’t know why.  I hate sleep, I really find it a time wasting thing and I resent that I need more than the average person because of my infections, arthritis and so forth.  I am trying to force my body into a sleep pattern, by forcing myself to wake up by 10am regardless of when I slept the night before; I started doing this 3 days ago, and last night I think my body decided OK, I will sleep now and the last time I saw the clock it was 02:10am, so I think it’s working a little.

I am really trying to discipline my body.  I am pleased also that whatever is happening to my body, I am able to do around 15 minutes of exercise before getting really tired – it’s a big thing for me, because as I said, I have hardly been able to move for a few years and all of this has happened much quicker than I thought it would.  But all in all there is not a massive difference in my pain levels or infections. 

I’m just trying to force myself and it is torture, I will tell you.  I need to get back to my athletic self again.  I used to be very athletic, I was always up and doing things and loved sport and I miss it so much!  Honestly, this was NOT a lifestyle choice for me, I genuinely became too ill to move and this is why I resent people who think they know about overweight disabled people, people like Anthea Turner!

I have been the victim of disability discrimination and fat discrimination for the past few years and I have seen the worst of humanity – it is especially prevalent with doctors who should know better!

Let’s pray you assholes who fat shame and hate on disabled people are never put into a situation where you are injured and sick enough not to be able to move and that you get fat too and get karma kicking your asses like you would deserve!

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Research what your doctor diagnoses you with!

As someone who has had pneumonia once a year for the past 5yrs, I was told when Covid19 came into the world that I should consider never going out as I am on the very vulnerable list especially as I have other health issues on top of it all and Covid19 as we all know is known as a super pneumonia! 

Being used to isolation since childhood, it seemed to me to be a doddle of a thing to accept.  But it is frustrating, because I was just starting to get my life into gear and I am starting to feel that this is some kind of curse my mother has put on me.  I know it sounds ridiculous because the rest of the world has it and surely she can’t have cursed the whole world?  Of course I know that is nonsense, but it still crosses my mind a lot!

How ironic that this has happened just as I am free from her isolating me and shutting me away?

Well anyway, Monday was the first time I went out since the first ever lockdown in the UK, because I have dental issues that need to be seen to and I am due to have an IV treatment for my teeth in February – coincidentally today I have woken up to feel as though my chest is bruised and I have a cough and a cold on top of my usual respiratory problems.

A few days ago I started getting into the habit of making smoothies, particularly green ones, because I wanted to boost my immune system for when I have my tooth seen to in a couple of weeks’ time; when I get a cold and a cough like this after being on a really super rich high vitamin and mineral diet for the last 2 weeks, it makes me wonder why I bothered in the first place?

Surely I would be stronger by now?  But no, I have a cold or something…

Well anyway, desperate I am to find any recipes for immune boosting so I found something called Goot, made it myself, lemons, turmeric, ginger, cinnamon, apple cider vinegar, garlic and honey, going to take 2 spoons 4 times a day to see if I get better any sooner than I would normally – which would normally be around 3 to 5 weeks’ time – a lot of colds and flu turn very chronic for me and last up to 6 weeks on average at the chronic level, something doctors could never understand!

Well anyway, a few years before I met Paul, I remember being diagnosed with pernicious anaemia, but nobody explained to me what that meant so I presumed, much like my mother did, that it just meant really bad anaemia – well Paul after hearing me reminisce this, decided to research it to find out it is an auto-immune problem which can make absorption or development of vitamin B12 very difficult for me, which would explain the neurological problems I seem to be developing!  I have been living with pernicious anaemia for a little over 15yrs and no one told me what it meant or treated me, no wonder I am falling apart!  I have also been diagnosed with and untreated for 17yrs with rheumatic arthritis!

Pernicious anemia can severely damage your nervous system and digestive system over a course of years if untreated, it is an autoimmune disease which can make you severely malnourished of certain B vitamins!

So because I am scared to go out unless absolutely necessary because of Covid19 I am waiting until things die down a bit so I can tell my new doctors here in Rugby, Warwickshire about my health past and how I have never received treatment and see what they got to say about that!

I think perhaps this is what my doctor meant when he phoned me a few months ago about a medical review, because I gave him a list of symptoms in an email and he was concerned and said he is going to look into my files etc. about other things and see if there are links – but I never got back to him!  Perhaps he has seen my medical records and understood I am not being treated right!

My doctor knows that I have suffer from chronic anxieties at the best of times and I am very OCD, so getting me out of the house unless it is an utter emergency during covid is going to be a huge challenge!

Just thought I say this to update you all!

Hope that the UK takes lockdown seriously this time around so I can get my health back into check by keeping to my appointments and investigations!

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Beetroot & Berry Smoothie

I made a smoothie today, totally experimental and it is utterly delicious!

Ingredients are;

A cup of cranberry juice

Half a cup of frozen mixed (blackberries, raspberries, redcurrants, black currants, strawberries)

Half a lime including the zest/skin just take the seeds out!

1 medium banana

1 whole large beetroot raw!

A wedge of red bell pepper

Cinnamon to taste

I mixed this together in my nutribullet I bought about 5yrs ago and it serves three.  My son Henry needed sugar with his in order to convince him to drink it; he won’t have it with honey unfortunately!

It’s very tasty, I have had smoothies a lot in the past, but it is usually a bother for Paul to help me with making them when I am going through my hard times and so I feel guilty getting him to do them, but today I did it myself, had some energy to do so. 

It’s a new recipe for me, I made it up as I went along and I am glad I did.

I was fearful of wasting a lot of food I can’t afford to replace, but it was a good and well paid off risk and Henry seems to like it so far!

I need to find a green smoothie I like just as much, lol.

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Weight loss & image

Weight loss and image photos will not start until I know precisely how I am going to react after my dental surgery in early February. Because of my limited diet and because of potential pain and loss of a tooth due to an abscess I have, I may not be able to keep to new dietary changes for a few weeks, hence why realistically I am starting this diet plan after I know what is happening dental wise.

I hope to have posted my “before” photos around the end of February to the beggining of March!

The last thing I want to do is to set myself all up for this and then fail before a month is up for a couple of weeks just because of tooth complications, I want it all set for the rest of my life after this!

It is doubtful I will lose my tooth and to be honest, I have already changed my diet, but I do worry about what kinds of food I will have to eat for a couple of weeks if there are tooth complications. It is likely I will need soup, jellies and that sort of thing for a few weeks, so basically it might be high sugar because of the fructose in the fruits I would likely have to eat.

It sounds utterly stupid because more fructose when you are talking dental is the last thing my teeth will need, but hey hum – I am not sure what is soft enough for dental problems other than soup, jelly and fruits and certain vegetables.

Some ideas I have are homemade tomato soup (without cream), bone broth, avocadoes (as well as guacamole), pesto, vegetable soup and consomme, chicken consomme, overcooked gluten free pasta bolognese and arribiata without chicken, fruit jellies, canned peaches with vegan cream, gluten free berry crepes, banana smoothie, vegan banana milkshake, berries, gluten free apple or berry crumble and custard, onion soup, to name but a few. The reason behind such a drastic idea is because I am currently in a lot of pain as I have an abscess in the area of my mouth where I mainly chew meat and hard things like that. I can’t shift sides because of medical reasons, my other side of the mouth/jaw is very weak and can cause pain which leads into the neck and ear as I had lifesaving head & neck and mastoid surgery 20yrs ago. The abscess was caused by dental floss slipping the wrong way and cracked my tooth a little; my dentist recommends NOT TO FLOSS, she says people who floss have more trouble than those who don’t, instead, we should swoosh salt water around our mouths rigorously several times and spend more time brushing then mouthwash, after using mouthwash, you do not rinse it out with water again or you made the mouthwash useless!

If you can give me some ideas of what I can eat during that time which is soft, low in sugar, lactose free, gluten free, flax free, and low in fat (as I have trouble synthesizing certain fats), then I’d love to hear from you!

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