I touch the hard cold surface of humanity
I am not afraid to share it
I’ve swam through pissy waters and through the shit
I have burned with envy in the flames of my own Hell
I can smile sweetly and pretend that things are swell
I know that you don’t like it
But this is who I am
Life has knocked me down hard with its whams
I can’t keep painting rainbows
When it’s a grey world I reside
I cannot fake I am happy
Do you wish that I have lied?
You turn off notifications when I swear a lot
You chose not to come back again, when my words become hot
But take me as I am and you will see for sure
That life for everyone has its ups and downs
Though I have downs more
You’ve read me in my past
Things aren’t likely to change
Though I strive hard to make it
Strive till I’m deranged
But at least stick around for progress
Because it should surely come?
I can’t be like this forever…
Can anyone?
Maybe you’re afraid I’ll die
That I’ll finally have enough
And you don’t want to guess
When I have finally snuffed!
Written 01:09am 1st March 2023
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