I’m going to rant a little.
It looks to me as though people really enjoy depressing content.
Since being a little more chipper on my blog and avoiding melancholy, I’ve noticed I have lost nearly 200 followers in a week… really?
I mean, really?
Never mind the fact that I am a real human being who has a hard time and she is trying to buck herself up and get out there in a lighter way, in a happier way… oh no, she’s getting happy, let’s unfollow her!
I’m sorry but I do what I do, when I do it.
You have to accept my ups as much as you accepted my downs.
If you can’t tolerate that, then I am sorry to say good riddance.
It is a real struggle to deal with suicidal thoughts and depression, whilst trying to handle the PTSD of the violence I’ve experienced throughout my life.
I don’t need private emails from people suggesting that I am trying to cover up my depression by vomiting rainbows and statements like that and how they believe I genuinely don’t have depressions because I try to do that from time to time. I am sorry, but I do.
I am genuinely suicidal in comes and goes in bouts and I vomit rainbows to try and stop myself from going over the edge! I have to and if you can’t hack it, then keep away and keep your nasty comments to yourselves!
Thanks for reading, for those who stay with me through thick and thin, through the darkness and the light!