Women I’ve idolised my whole life and some more recently for whatever reason;
Kathleen Turner – absolutely stunning, always liked her shape and she’s so pretty.
Diana Dors is literally a pin up I had as a teenager but mum either by accident or design ripped the poster that was on my wall and now I only have postcards of her.
But I always wanted to be like her when I grow up – white hair, that kind of figure at her prime was always my goal!
Even to this day, I’ve mostly wanted white platinum wavy hair, but I don’t think it suits my face. So a brunette then I suppose? Or purple hair? Or go to a wig shop and see what does suit me and see if platinum does suit my face? Lol.
If it does suit me, then I will feel happy, but I am stockier than I want to be and I don’t think I can do much about that, I build muscle too fast, always have! As Al Pacino’s devil said in my favourite movie Devil’s advocate “Vanity is my favourite sin”, but I’d like to think I am not terribly narcissistic in a bad way, but I do enjoy some attention, depends what though!
It was always my intention to be like this someday, whenever the opportunity occurs, I won’t be becoming anything new just because… it’s really who I am in my heart. What I am now is a false creature, living and dressing in the reality I do not want.
I am a chameleon peacock by heart.
Kirstie Alley back in the 80s was also on my pin up idol list.
Glen Close, she’s always been gorgeous!
Meryl Streep, again she’s always been pretty and I have always liked her style too – I was flabbergasted when my niece did my face on an app to see how I would look in 50yrs time if I were rich and glamorous – I looked like I could be her sister! I have the pic on Facebook somewhere I got to find it for Instagram.
Rosie Perez was also on my list growing up, of who I idolised in looks and fashion as well as a classic English actress called Penelope Keith, I envy Penelope’s voice.
As was Kate Moss and Linda Evangelista.
In my early twenties I developed an obsession to be like Lucille Ball and have red hair, one of my exes said that in his opinion my personality is mirror quality to her, but I won’t ever look like her!
Shame really.
Also more recently I really like the fashion sense of Lady Gaga, Katy Perry, Dita Von Teese, Bjork and Melanie Martinez, but my body doesn’t suit their style yet… working on it!
I know I am probably going to look like mutton dressed as lamb but I don’t really care, it’s what’s in my heart that counts and I want to look however I like!
On my more androgynous days I like to look like Tilda Swinton, Glen Close, Annie Lennox, Cara Delevingne and several of the lifestyle female dandies on YouTube.
But I am mostly cute and wacky and most likely to wear Joe Browns, gypsy style, or cute styles similar to Kawaii– around the home I like wrap dresses, baggy tops, cardigans and dungarees if I can help it and have the budget for it.
I really wished I had more options going for me, but until I lose around another twenty to forty pounds I am pretty limited in the UK.
My weight loss goal is to be 180llb again.
I will get there, because I need to, my style is boring these days because I am just making do!
Though I’ve never been in the position to afford making myself up facially with cosmetics on a regular basis. As I said, I’ll get there, eventually. I am hoping my YouTube will be successful so I can afford to be this, imagine… a plain Jane to a glamorous peacock!
I also enjoy fashion designs from Jeremy Scott, Donatella Versace, Zandra Rhodes and Alexander McQueen.
Happy reading!
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