Trying to function

My Henry has been sick again, doctors call it a growth spurt, but he is having a lot of time off school because of it.

Today I have started writing again, though I am not as comfortable as I was before my chair started tilting at the new desk; I am getting on with it in spite of having to do it again at the adjustable table, at least I am not in pain with my hip and lower back anymore, but there is a little neck strain going on, because I have to keep turning my head.

This will only be for the next six weeks, because we’ve rearranged the furniture in the living room to make room for the Christmas tree we’ll be setting up on December the first!

After Christmas things will be more comfortable again, until next year, that is providing we are still in the same house – hopefully we won’t be, even though the move will break Henry’s heart, I have never been comfortable in this house, especially since He moved in next door!

It’s unlikely we will move, but I always hope I’d have moved house around this time to year to a new house, since living here! It’s like a New Years resolution that never resolves!

Last night I thought I was going to sleep at 2am, unusually early for me, but then fifteen minutes after lights out, my brain decided to become poetic until 4am again, I wrote five poems by hand in bed – such a nuisance!

My hand is swollen and I should really rest it, but I can’t, I have things in my head that I need to type out!

I have decided tomorrow onwards I am going to force myself to write 3k words per day towards one novel and still write like how I usually do in other ways too!

But I need to get at least twenty books completely out of my head, because I am losing sleep over them!

Whilst writing the poems last night in bed by hand, I also started writing new ideas towards Steampunk 1 project, which was unexpected and I was irritated because I was nearly fainting in tiredness near the end of it!

I very nearly made myself a coffee and come downstairs to type it out faster on the computer, but I didn’t, I forced my brain to behave itself!

I am really struggling to train my brain to work at a reasonable time of day.

I have had long conversational rants at it, but it won’t listen, if anything it rebels all the more!

If I were a vampire, it would be reasonable, but since I am not, it is utterly ridiculous! 

I struggle to work too, when Henry is around, because Henry seems to get upset whenever I read a book or write in his presence, and I don’t do it so often that Henry should feel emotionally neglected, but he does tend to get really hot headed and playful whenever he sees me do anything like this.

Paul is trying to be strict with him about it, but Paul is still ill with the shingles after all this time and doesn’t have the energy to be persistent with him!

I really need to lock myself away in an office just for me, there isn’t much other choice!  For someone who can write with music and television on and even writing in a crowded café from time to time in the past, it’s really something if I can’t write with a whining, demanding, arm pulling eleven year old around me!  I don’t why he reverts when he sees me reading and writing or doing art, I really don’t!

Whenever I do art however he is different, he will sit across the table from me and do art too, but he jerks the table a lot and as sweet as it is, I wished he would sit on another table so I wouldn’t mess my own painting up with his sudden movements!

He gets upset if I don’t paint for as long as he wishes too.  I feel I can’t win!

But I am plodding along today, he went back to school today, but I unfortunately started work late, due to sleeping longer than usual.

I hate sleep, it’s so unproductive and a waste of time!

I have never been one who loves sleep, never been one of these people who proclaim a love for their bed!  I have always resented rest!

It drives Paul mad, he thinks I overdo everything!

Anyway, writing is going to be more consistent, even if I do forget my promises about updating on word counts on Wednesdays!

Happy reading!

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