I feel like an alien in this world as I am in a constant state of confusion.
Everything puzzles me.
I feel lost and very lonely most of the time and before you think, you should know this is not a poem.
This is a post of statements of how I currently feel.
There are days when I feel like I have stepped into a groundhog day, I am sure I have done this day before? There are days when I wake up and I am sure that it is Friday, but it isn’t it is actually only Wednesday.
I have an understanding of how the world should be, but I am not an oppressive, I love the individuality of everyone I meet, but it can be hard when I think that what I do is right and proper and I have people gawp at me as though I am some kind of purple spotted beast who just farted in their faces!
Yet all I did was, what I thought was any common decent thing to do – please may you pass the salt? Maybe the people I generally spend time with are not used to manners like that? I don’t know, but they make me feel like I am a strange and complicated thing.
I dare to be polite to serving staff at cafes and do small talk with them, how dare I… the staff don’t react badly to it, but other customers and those who are with me at my table seem to think there is something odd about that. “Do you know them”? They ask almost accusingly – “No”, I reply. Most strange isn’t it? Apparently so!
I have had some friends who are on the same wavelength as me and they appreciate this personality in me and they have suggested what they call another cropping of my contacts! I shouldn’t feel alienated by being polite or simply just conversational and friendly – but people like me seem to be a minority and it is getting worse as years go on.
The people at your local supermarket and those who serve you green tea at the café and the teacher at your child’s school are people, they are not machines, you can be nice to them you know? It would make the world a better place to do so, would change the way humanity progresses… try it!
Be nice, you never know, you might enjoy the outcome!