Writing has been difficult in the past few weeks, due to the annoying fact that my arms are losing strength when typing and the computer desk has been too high for me to type for longer than 10 minutes at a time, without going numb.
I have become almost unbearable to live with because of my temper in regards to not being able to type or even play many online games as my arms won’t let me.
Paul has helped massively, he has an adjustable table for me now for my laptop and that has meant I can do more things again. But, typing on my laptop is laggy and frustrating and I make many mistakes, not to mention the lighting on the screen is very sharp. So, once again Paul decided to take measurements for me and has moved furniture around the living room and bedroom for me.
The new areas for writing are a corner in the bedroom and living room. Bedroom because I have insomnia and often want to write at night, but also because I get very tired during the day sometimes and often find myself upstairs. We are planning to maybe make a change again next year; to make the spare bedroom into an upstairs living room for winter, because downstairs is far too cold!
The corner of the living room will have an L shaped desk at the end of my art table by the end of the week, because I have become a grumpy living nightmare since I can’t work as much as I want to creatively.
Paul is doing all of this for me, unfortunately it has meant that my rabbit has been moved to live in the hallway now, because we don’t have the room anymore in the lounge.
I will be learning on skill share soon to set up a YouTube channel and editing videos, so I will become a vlogger as well as a blogger in the near future. I cannot commit to more than once a fortnight for a video just yet though.
I do intend, once the desk I set up properly, to do NaNoWriMo this year, because there are four books nagging me like mad lately in my head. I am also doing inktober and I will be posting my art daily all of the month of October, with any luck!
Doctors are taking all of my symptoms as a matter of urgency and I have to admit, I am scared. Normally, I am told that there is a two year waiting list for neurology in this area, but the doctors are pushing for me to be seen within 16 weeks.
I am told what they suspect might not be good. So there is a lot of stress in my life right now and a lot of limitations as I am literally struggling to do everything!
Because I am a determined and stubborn person, this lack of being able to do anything, has made me very snappy and I have been losing my will to think positively or even plan for a future to be honest. Despite what I have said about my creative plans, I somehow feel I am just setting myself up for failure, simply because I don’t have the energy to be as consistent as I would like. I am also scared that if I become successful in my ventures in the future, that I won’t be able to keep up with the demands of the work or the demands of my agents. Because I am rarely able to keep up with the demands of going to the doctor surgery because I can’t wake up, or my mucus production is so strenuous on a day, that no taxi will take me to the surgery on the account of me choking and coughing so much as they think I have covid – when I don’t!
So, this is the update of what’s going on here with me and what I hope to plan to do in the future. Let’s just hope I can actually get to do these things and let’s hope that the doctor hasn’t any real reason to worry, shall we?
Also, my mental health has had a huge bashing over this; I am literally bawling my eyes out at the slightest thing and becoming a complete emotional train wreck!
Anyway – happy reading and I hope to write again next week at some point.