My head is swelling up
My ear is getting sore
My head starts to thump
Tinnitus begins to roar
I feel sick and lazy
I feel tired and in pain
This constant pressure in my ear is driving me insane
Every day is different, every day the same
I live in constant variations of suffering and pain
How’s your ailments? People ask
How’s your breathing I want to say?
But I keep quiet and carry on
Like nothings in my way
One infection, one week
Another in a fortnight
A virus after that’s cleared up
I don’t need some psychic foresight
This is my life
Like it or not
I know you wouldn’t if you were me
Living in a useless way
In pain and suffering
Knock me out I often ask
Throttle me right now
Help me out of this rotten life
Please make a solemn vow
But no one wants to
So I live on
In pain and agony
I am not strong
I have no choice but to suffer this
Each and every day
Be brave others tell me
And I think more about the grave
I have no choice but to be brave I say
I have no choice at all
You think staying at home all day in pain is lovely, like a ball?
Oh if it were only so, but it’s not
I live in pain, my ear is hot
Burning inside, burning out
Making me dizzy, draining from my snout
I can’t have fun or laughter
I can’t have a life at all
For living in pain isn’t lovely
Try a day you fool
I would love nothing better than to do the school run and work
I don’t choose this life you scum bag, you idiot and you twerp
I know I’m angry that is true
But try living in my shoes
I try each day to keep myself sane
To keep my temper calm
But it’s hard to stick with politeness, when others show their qualms
She’s here to infect us again they say
But what I have isn’t contagious
I’ve had it all my life almost
Isn’t it outrageous?
I try to live a normal life
But it’s hard to do it each day
I don’t often go out at all
Not even for play
It is a lonely life I have
It is a sad one too
But I don’t want your sympathy
That’s the worst thing you could do
I just want the pain to stop
And my nose stop running too
I want to live a normal life
And get to know a person or two
I want to do the school run
Get a part time job at Scope
I want to do so many things
I sit and wonder and hope
That someday my life will change
I will find a good doctor
A consultant who knows what is wrong
Someone to cure me of all my ills
Somebody who really feels
For their patients and kind too
Someone who knows what to do
So I can breathe normally
So I can hear just fine
So I don’t live my life in pain anymore
And live the life that’s mine
I want to be free to live my life
Be happy without sickness and pain
I want to recover right now
Because it’s driving me insane
I sit and wish it won’t be long
Before I get to heal
Because if it goes on for much more longer
I, myself shall kill
